Fourteen years after she was kidnapped from her Salt Lake City home, Elizabeth Smart is speaking about what her captor did to make her "living hell worse".
Smart never spoke Brian David Mitchell's name in the video posted to YouTube. She referred to him as "my captor". She said the night she was kidnapped, still in her pajamas, "was the beginning of what turned into the longest nine months of my life."
"Every time, when I thought I had hit rock bottom, my captor would find something new to make it worse," Smart said.
Smart said one of those things was pornography.
A few days after forcing her to drink alcohol until she vomited and pass out, Smart said her captor came to her "excited".
"He pulled out this magazine full of hard core pornography, and I remember he would just sit and look at it," she said. After spending hours looking at the pornography, Smart said he insist they mimic the photographs.
"It just led to him raping me more, more than he already did, which was a lot," she said.
In the video, produced by anti-porn non-profit group Fight the New Drug, Smart said Mitchell "always wanted more."
She stops short of blaming her kidnapping on pornography: "All I know, is pornography made my living hell worse."
Smart explains why she's speaking out about the horrific experience, and the new details about pornography. She said the morning after her rescue, her mother gave her advice:
"She said: what these people have done to you is so terrible, and you may feel like restitution is never made, but the best punishment that you could ever give them is to be happy, and that advice has helped make me who I am today."
Smart said that's what has made her an advocate for abused children and an advocate against pornography.
"I witnessed first hand just how damaging it is," she said.
Smart also ends with amazing perspective: "When I take a step back, and look at my life as a whole, I've had a pretty incredible life and I wouldn't trade it for anything. I am happy now."
